"Ahh the usual Sunday" was the thing lingering in my mind when i woke up. Things were just moving on as usual but the onli thing is that we have Basin and Towel. So Barney, Elliot and I stayed back to play ping pong. We had such a great time trying to out do each other. We played until Basin and Towel and we were a little worn out. So during Basin and Towel i was pretty tired and wasnt really paying attention(Sorry Sonny, every afternoon i will feel the same thing no matter what event). Suddenly Sherry stood up and went behind to answer a phone call well that happens to anyone as usual. The weird part was when she tap on my shoulder and asked me to follow her. I was kinda shocked coz i didnt know what was going on. "Call your dad. Its urgent" those were the words i received from Sherry and then i borrowed her phone to call my dad. I called my dad and he told me bluntly " your grandfather is dead"... Ok haha i didnt really ask much coz i dunno what else to ask and quiet shocked.

I went home after basin and towel and wait for my parents to return. Then we went to the funeral parlour together and i was told that i needed to do the ceremony with them. I couldnt say anything because they were rushing us since it was like a last minute thing. So after the ceremony i asked my dad to excuse me from all the ceremony but my dad insist for the sake of respect. Not wanting to make a big fuss i just went along with it. On the same night Dexter and Chris gave me a lot of support and i was also encouraged that there are so many other youths who sent their condolences to me. I didnt really expect something like that and i know that the YF is there for me during the funeral day.

The Ceremony was funny coz they were asking us to do all sorts of weird stuff like walking around while the Monk sings his song which is some sort of meditation. Well they do hav good voice coz it sounds like some opera show haha. i didnt do exactly the way they wanted me to like when they say bow 3 times, i bowed once or twice. when he was singing his way as we do nothing but holding a jostick, i was praying in tounges. so throughout the whole ceremony i realised that the people have a certain level of Hell and all they do is remain in Hell. They even believe that the dead will be reincarnated into some creature, Ghost, or human. Its just so sad because i had a better ticket than that.

Oh did i mention bout the paper that they burn? they hav a house to burn and guess what, they hav house number as well. im laughing in my heart. there is also a car the size of a toddler toy car which they ride around the garden and there is also a number plate. the most hillarious is that there r 2 paper made SERVANTS. During one session, the monk taught the servants on how to take care of my grandfather. haha they really look silly with all these things. Later on the 2nd day at night they burnt all those paper stuff. They lit the house first and the whole pile of paper stuff went off into a big flame in no time at all. i was mesmerized with the fire haha. looks cool.

So on the 3rd day, they cremated the coffin and there wasnt much to say bout that since i have been to that part before. Lets go to the 4th day where we throw the ashes into the sea. We went to North port in Klang for the 1st time im there actually. the ride was fast and we went to the jeti where there is a boat waiting for us. Its just a small tug boat but the ride was good ahha. A different kinda ride i would say from the other boat rides i have been coz we can walk around the boat. when we went furthur out into the sea, they started to ceremony again and the monk almost fell off the boat coz there was another speed boat passing by thus creating small waves and the waves were pushing the side of the boat. so it got a little rocky and he was standing singing again. so later as he sings he took the ash and throw it into the sea along with some sacrificial food. I was just looking into the sea in search of fishes coz he threw some twisties and cup cakes. to my dismay, there were none. after the monk stop singing it was all over and time ti go back. i wish i could go for that kinda boat ride again coz its fun ahha.

A beautiful day to thank God for today.
Also a good day to be alive.

We went for dinner in PJ State tonight. When we were on our way home, i was driving as usual. Didnt really speed, just 100km/h max on the fast lane. Right when we were beside guiness stout factory in front of the double layer bridge, there was a van stoped in front on the fast lane. It didnt seem stationary at 1st but later as i approach closer 2 cars in front of me swirve to the sides a little and i realise that the van in front IS indeed stationary. I hit the brakes without much thought and i realise i couldnt stop in time so i "piu" to the left and manage to miss the the 2 cars in front of me. Right when i had recover my position on the middle lane, i heard a bang and saw lots of smoke beside me. Then i realise that the car which was chasing behind me earlier had made an impact on the 2 stationary cars. i went off on the middle at 40km/h. it was a close call but my parents and I had survived the what could've been a tragic accident.

As i pass in front of the stationary van, i saw a motorcycle lying horizontaly in front of it. i guess that the van might have knocked down the motorcycle and stopped.

I give all the Praise to God. I know he had his hands on me through out the day.

Behold the barney picture....



caught unarmed hehe....
using quick thinking i finally caught the picture that barney fans would want.
the latest cute edition is finally out girls. pls dont spam...

Have you ever feel so down?
Have you ever feel like breaking down?
Facing all the demons inside...
all alone inside...
to pretend like nothing happened
to be someone who have nothing

Excel in everything but no recognition
in all we do be humble
all they ask is be humble
do they show or do they realize?
how hard is it to do it and yet be discriminated?
you try your best to walk
you keep away from the fall

who is accepted?
who is holy?
who dares to declare without a stone on his face
who dares to say i am what God made me
with a spear in his heart
how can i move when im all chained up
emotions holds better than metal

Im small
Im useless
Im nobody
Im without precious
Im without beauty
Im without substance
This I HAVE
A Friend who loved me
A Friend who died for me
A Friend who gave me a reason not to take my life
A Friend who had a GREAT FATHER
GREAT in power
Great in wisdom
Worshiped by all
all who fears Him
He who gave me the power
The power in my hands
All I have i declare with loud noises
to stop the world from moving
and listen to this...

"Our God calls us to Him"
"Our God found us"
"He wants us to return"
"Return into his heavenly Kingdom"

     Isit fun to be as successful as Job? Well Try it you might like it. What did God take away from him?

1) His Life Stock. Something that makes him wealthy and comfortable. So don't depend too much on it, because it will be gone in a split second

2) His Family. Who else is closest to us than our family and the one we loved. Well Like everyone knows, love needs to sacrifice. If we can't even handle a break up then how else can we endure something worst than that.

3) His Health. This time its about individual. What would you do when you notice some big changes in our health. Do we leave it and hope it will be gone? It won't be that easy when we are at the point where we could see the "light". It changes our way of life when we escape death.

Well Life is to be treasured. Love is fragile. Work never ends. In all things, lay all these in the hands you trust the most. The choice is yours. I chose God. because he delivered me from all these and hopefully from the 3rd as well. I have a feeling that my Furnace for this year is health or health.

Decisions are hard to made... Just when i said "this year more troubles would come to strengthen me" and here comes the problems. Im not sure what God is trying to do now. All i know is that i have to face a live fire exercise where im in the battlefield where every second and decision counts.

2 by 2 they come. I have only one bullet for each pair. Who should i shoot at? Strategy! God, my life is torn into 2 and i have sensed that this year i will break down one more time. I guess its just like Susanna shared today. We are broken so that others may be blessed. I don't think its merely sharing that we are talking about here. I feel that what Elaine Khoo said was true. We are like a Gold fish in a bowl, being watched all the time. I know i will soon do at least one mistake. What would that mean?

God had it all in his mind and his hands. I have no idea what to do now. I could see the future but yet i still have to make a decision. I wish the choices that i make are obvious. God PLEASE highlight for me the right choice and shade the wrong one.

    Good morning, afternoon and good evening. This is a special treat for someone who had just left for England. Good moments and sad ones left behind. Enjoy!!

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Apparently they don't allow me to upload the pics since the size is too big. So sorry but we did have a great time haha even at the airport. so much of drama that my camera wasnt enough for it.

    Its been awhile since i came and blog. Well of course i haven't found the time, it's simply  busy.

    1st of all, we had a youth camp. My camera pictures arent tat exciting but at least they are somewhat precious to me. I hold dearly to the people i take picture with. Don't worry everyone. there is no way i will forget you all. I love everyone in the YF equally. I have only a few close ones that i always share my heart out to but you know what i mean. Ok the pictures will be up soon. i hope this blog can take it because the file size are kinda big.

    Let me go home and edit this entry. Right now i need to work haha.


Work in progress.........

    Got the shock this morning when i see my mom walk into the office. She was sobbing and i guessed it right. My dad always scolds her for being late. She is just doing her job buying Vege and fruits. Nothing personal at all but yet he scolds her.  I know how both side feels but my mom did her best to buy as fast as she could and as good quality as she could. It counsumes a lot of time when she choose if she doesnt then half the things are rotten so its not worth the money as well.

    I hope this won't happen again because i was dragged in all of the sudden and for small reasons. Oh well I hope God can comfort me this time. Im surely forgotten when someone finished her exams and she can start enjoying after our break ups. Like the lessons learned, dont expect anything from her. Just do what i can and when i can. What is lost is only appreciated. Meaningful tag line Jo Leen.